God makes me laugh. Ha

So, I don't even know how long it has been since I have blogged.. Why am I picking it up again?? I have no idea. I think I'm bored on a Tuesday afternoon and have a lot going on inside of my heart right now so I need some way to let it out. I have now started my new life. And it is honestly the life I've dreamed of but never really thought would happen. I love how God works. I'm a First Year Student at Global School of Supernatural Ministry "Go Delta's" and I am LOVING every single minute of it. There are some things that sound like they will be stretching experiences, but God will never give me more than I can handle. I'm keeping Him to that word:).
So I decided to read my last blog entry to see the place I was at emotionally and spiritually and it honestly made me laugh to see what I said.
"Also, last year when the Global School came to our church and I was, I believe, commissioned, I felt like I was going to become this amazing person for Him, preaching to the nations, working in the prophetic, Him doing amazing healings through me, etc.... Now, I'm exaggerating when I say those things, but in my wildest, most craziest dreams, I thought that maybe something like that could maybe happen." Do you notice how I said, in my wildest and craziest dreams?! I look at those things and realize........... Oh my gosh. I've actually done/am doing those things. Now, preaching to the nations, maybe not. BUT I've been to Brazil and brought the gospel. And I don't think you have to preach from a pulpit to preach the gospel:). So I'm on my way.. aha.. But, God has been doing signs and wonders through my, what I thought were meaningless and inadequate, hands. He is using me in ways I dreamed of. Then as for the prophesying over someone, I just did that today. We have Bob Hazlett teaching us this week and he is strongly prophetic.. He has us prophesy over each other and the first time I got it right and then I am not sure about the second, but the guy seemed very cool about it. Point being, I prophesied! I did what I DREAMED of doing. Gahhh! And funny thing is, it all started with Global and now look at where I'm at. Yep, Global..... You're funny God, reallllll funny:).
So yeah, God is doing something in me. I'm not sure what, but I am starting to feel slight changes. Like today, when I prophesied over those people, I got nervous in the beginning but then I just wanted something to give them (not only cause I didn't want to look stupid) but I wanted to see if it bore witness with them. I wanted these people to be blessed and encouraged. So God was faithful and gave me something. Wether or not it was completely correct, I did it:). Another thing is, in a couple of weeks, we will be starting what Global calls, "Phase 2" which means we have to go out and do outreach. Now, we will be with a mentor, but as time goes on, we will then lead and then go by ourselves. And strangely enough, I'm not totally freaking out about it. I really feel like God is just working from the inside out to really not care what people may think of me. I'm just trusting in my Daddy and acting on what He told me and what the person does with it after that, is not something I have to be concerned about. God is on my side and He is taking all the shame and discouragement from me, so I'm good to go. They aren't rejecting me when they say no to prayer or a word, they are rejecting God. Thats what is so neat, He takes care of me.. He is like the big brother or dad who stands up for you when someone lets you down or makes fun of you.
I've also started noticing changes my quiet times and worship. I'm letting go, digging deeper, go after it and not caring. When I do worship again with Global, I'm gonna be myself, picture myself with Jesus and not care what everyone thinks of my voice. I will NOT live in that mindset of, it's all about me and what I sound/look like. It is honestly ONLY about worshiping my Lover and being with Him, so who honestly cares what the cute boy standing in the same room as me, listening to me, watching how goofy I look, thinks!? It DOESN'T matter. Its so freeing!


God is doing something in me.
Brazil here I come, life in the ministry, here I come, boldness like never before, here I come. Being who He has created me to be, here I come.

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