October 19, 2008

Wow, October 19th, 1995 was the day my little brother, Noah was born. That was 13 years ago. So hard to believe. It seems like yesterday he was running around, putting his blanket in the toilet, eating dirt, and cutting his own hair:). Then he hit around 7 or 8 and he started growing up, well, somewhat;-). He cared about what he looked like, sang in the bathroom as he got ready, and washed his hands constantly, yet he was still the annoying little Noah, I had always known. Funny to think, I would give anything for him to be that little annoying Noah again. Then he hit 10, playing outside all day, when my mom wasn't making him do school, calling his best friend, Noah, at 11pm, playing on the computer when he wasn't outside or doing school, and still singing his heart out. Cool thing about his singing, is that he actually has a good voice. He was and still is a kid who loves tv, music, video games, and a whole bunch of other things. Then, April 27th, 2007, the worst day of my life, he was struck by lightening and life has never been the same. That day was the last time I heard him sass talk me, last time I thought he was annoying, a lot of lasts happened that day. But they will come again. This has been a LONG journey, full of ups and downs all the time and we are still traveling on that journey. The first year was probably the hardest time I have ever, and hopefully will ever have to experience in my life. I spent many nights, crying out to God to heal my brother, to make him normal again and God has heard me. Noah isn't walking or talking, but I believe God is going to make that happen. I don't know when, but in faith, I believe it will happen. Noah is getting better everyday, but some days it is hard. He has been my joy when I come home from work, a bad day at school, when I have had a horrible day, or just in general. He sits there, unable to talk, walk and other things and still he smiles at me. I don't know how he does it, but everyday he brightens up my day. He is the sweetest, most amazing, tenderest, and funniest young man I have even known. He can't do much of anything and yet he is able to bring me joy, always. So today has been a joyful and really tough one for me. It started off very happy and now I am thinking about him being "whole" and it makes me want so much more. But I think he had a good birthday:) at least I hope he did. We opened presents about a half an hour ago and then we had cake, which he ate a lot of:). Anyways, he did have a good birthday and I am pretty sure the rest of the Addesa household had a pretty good day too:) So yes, Happy Birthday to the MOST amazing brother ever. You are my hero Noah and I love you so much.
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