These days....

So what have I been up to these days???? Finding my Papa. I love calling Him by that name=). But yeah, I really have. Last Friday night, November 14, God commissioned me. He told me, through others, that He would open doors for me and He has. There is so much to tell about what happened, but what really stood out to me was that I am going to be a "nurse" to hearts. And when I say nurse, I mean like, emotional nurse. It's funny, cause about a year ago, I was really thinking about going into the medical field, but awhile ago (maybe 5 or more months ago), my heart hasn't been anywhere near the medical field. I am not there anymore. I want to live in God, at His feet, in His presents, finding HIM. I am now reading the book, by H. A. Baker- Visions Beyond the Veil. So good.... It is talking about these kids getting to actually see Him and sit at His feet. They got to actually see and dance with angels, wow. It make me so jealous that I wasn't apart of it. I have been wanting soo bad to just really see His face, feel my Papa, know my Papa. So wow, that's a lottt of different things in one so I'm kinda all over the place=p, sorry.

Last Friday though, was amazing. The whole past week was amazing. Wednesday morning (the 12th), our church and many others started the School of Healing. When I first got there, I thought maybe it wasn't really going to be for me at all. I thought I would just "be apart" of it. I didn't think God was going to work through me at all so I went to every session, and just watched what God was doing in everyone else. But on Friday night, Papa met me. He called me out and again, reminded me of my destiny, in front of the whole school=p. I was a crying mess, but I don't care, at all. Prophetic preacher, leader of woman, I am going to minister to woman, I will be a nurse to the emotional hurts, angels were assigned to me, the whole kit and caboodle. If I sound like I am boasting, please forgive me. I just get really excited and anxious when I think about Papa using me and the things He will be doing through me. So Friday night, was said to be my night of commissioning and I am so excited.

So tonight, we had a dinner at our church for people that live in the apartments next to my church and I was asked to be a part of a team that gave words of knowledge. I at first was not sure if I was supposed to because I have only gotten one word of knowledge so far, so of course, I prayed and asked Papa, what I should do. He told me yes. So all week I had been praying that God would show up and use me and I think He did. Now, revival didn't break out, but (I believe) He healed a young woman through me and that was an amazing feeling. We got words for people and they all held true. The young woman I prayed for, for emotional healing;), yet again, what I believe He is using me for, so conformation again;), was touched. When one of the leaders said he had a word for a woman that had just come through a tough past relationship, got hurt, I pictured this one girl (the girl I wound up praying for;)) in my head but I didn't know if it was just me or if it was really God telling me it was this girl. So I didn't do anything but when this leader told the group about what God was telling him, I was standing near that girl and she broke down and started to cry. It WAS for her! Papa really DID tell me that!!!!!! You don't know how happy that made me feel. He REALLY was talking to ME! Ohhh myyy!! So that was sooo cool. I am really starting to feel like God IS going to use me=D. So it has been a neat past couple of weeks. I am praying now that God is really going to continue to open doors for me to step out of my comfort zone and become who I am made to me. I love you Papa=D.

know Him
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He is so holy

Wow, how my heart has changed in this past week or so, in a great way.

Well to start off, Corey Russell, from IHOP (International House of Prayer) came to my church from Oct 24th- Oct 26th. And wow, was it amazing.http://www.harvestva.org/online-sermons.asp is where you can listen to his messages. You MUST listen, MUST. But as I have told the oh so wonderful Victoria, I am so full right now, spiritually. I think everyone is, though. I don't even know where to begin. I have been really trying to get back to The Word and the first day, all I could get was He is so holy. I have always known that, but for some reason, I just wept when I thought of Him and His holiness. I will NEVER and I mean NEVER stop getting revelations of Him and how big He is. I can't grasp that thought. We are such minute people and have pretty much everything on earth understood so for me, it is beyond hard to think that I will NEVER, and yet again, NEVER completely know God. As I type this, it makes me cry. He is so holy, so awesome, so magnificent, so omnipotent-All power, so.. everything great and mighty. . That's all I can say. hahaha. I mean, if you really think about it, really, it is mind boggling. So anyways... that may be nothing new to you, as it isn't to me, but I just think, sometimes it is a really good thing to think about when we think that life isn't going good, or we think we could do things better than Him, or whatever. He is so high above us. He is So Holy.

But other than that... Just other things he is showing me. I am still waiting for my breakthrough but I am pressing on.
Matthew 25:21 - "His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
I want that for my life. I want to be faithful in the little things so I will be in charge of many things.

He is so holy.

know Him~
<3 emma

October 19, 2008

Wow, October 19th, 1995 was the day my little brother, Noah was born. That was 13 years ago. So hard to believe. It seems like yesterday he was running around, putting his blanket in the toilet, eating dirt, and cutting his own hair:). Then he hit around 7 or 8 and he started growing up, well, somewhat;-). He cared about what he looked like, sang in the bathroom as he got ready, and washed his hands constantly, yet he was still the annoying little Noah, I had always known. Funny to think, I would give anything for him to be that little annoying Noah again. Then he hit 10, playing outside all day, when my mom wasn't making him do school, calling his best friend, Noah, at 11pm, playing on the computer when he wasn't outside or doing school, and still singing his heart out. Cool thing about his singing, is that he actually has a good voice. He was and still is a kid who loves tv, music, video games, and a whole bunch of other things. Then, April 27th, 2007, the worst day of my life, he was struck by lightening and life has never been the same. That day was the last time I heard him sass talk me, last time I thought he was annoying, a lot of lasts happened that day. But they will come again. This has been a LONG journey, full of ups and downs all the time and we are still traveling on that journey. The first year was probably the hardest time I have ever, and hopefully will ever have to experience in my life. I spent many nights, crying out to God to heal my brother, to make him normal again and God has heard me. Noah isn't walking or talking, but I believe God is going to make that happen. I don't know when, but in faith, I believe it will happen. Noah is getting better everyday, but some days it is hard. He has been my joy when I come home from work, a bad day at school, when I have had a horrible day, or just in general. He sits there, unable to talk, walk and other things and still he smiles at me. I don't know how he does it, but everyday he brightens up my day. He is the sweetest, most amazing, tenderest, and funniest young man I have even known. He can't do much of anything and yet he is able to bring me joy, always. So today has been a joyful and really tough one for me. It started off very happy and now I am thinking about him being "whole" and it makes me want so much more. But I think he had a good birthday:) at least I hope he did. We opened presents about a half an hour ago and then we had cake, which he ate a lot of:). Anyways, he did have a good birthday and I am pretty sure the rest of the Addesa household had a pretty good day too:) So yes, Happy Birthday to the MOST amazing brother ever. You are my hero Noah and I love you so much.
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